Monday, January 26, 2009

Sleepless in San Antonio...

Well, in less than one week I will be in Charlotte, NC. I slept terrible last night, tossing and turning, worried and sad about leaving the kids and Thomas. Again, I know my husband can handle it, but I wish so badly he didn't have to. I am going to miss them so much. And of course I am having the racing thoughts.. "Will Addison cry every night thinking I have left her for good?", "Is it worse that I am coming and going so Addison has to wake up to no mommy again every Monday morning", "Will Kirstynn forget me all together since 5 weeks is a LONG time in the span of her 1 year?", "Am I gonna miss Kirstynn's first step?", etc etc... And that is just to name a few. It's so hard but I just have to keep telling myself that in the long run it is for the better.....
A friend gave me a wonderful idea of buying webcams for my laptop so I can talk to them at night. I think I might try it.. I just worry that seeing me might upset Addison. Maybe I will try it once and if it doesn't fare well, discontinue.
Kirstynn took her first "step" this weekend too! She's been standing alone for 30 seconds to a minute at a time and finally took a mini step before falling on her diaper! It's so exciting. I wish she'd take one for the team and really walk before I leave on Sunday!
We found a pre-school that is being built in our neighborhood that Addison is starting in August. They use the A-Beka method of teaching which is what I was looking for and Addison cannot wait. She tells me every day she wants to go to "big" kid school. Its going to be very exciting. She will have to start school late because of her birthday which is why I am waiting until the fall - that will give her a full 2 years there before public school.
FYI.. the kids are sleeping GREAT! No more night waking!!!! Yeah!!


Danni Springfield said...

Hang in there, Momma. And remember your own advice... quality is much more important than quantity when it comes to mommy-time.