Woman's work...

I am sitting here in my living room watching a movie. Keekster is sleeping soundly in her crib. Thomas is taking a shower. Adi is at her Nana's enjoying some sun and fun. I've done the laundry and vacuumed the floors. It's quiet. I have some extra time.

Is it sick and demented that the silence makes me so anxious? My heart rate is actually increased due to having a few minutes with nothing exactly planned. Is it that there is something wrong with me or do all mothers that go a million miles per minute go through this?

Don't get me wrong. If I have "funtime" or vacations planned where I am supposed to relax and have fun, I can do it. If I prepare....
But it is these rare moments of piercing nothingness that I have a hard time swallowing. Isn't there something else I should be doing right now? Well, of course there is. There are windows to be wiped down, bathtubs to be scrubbed and closets to be cleaned out.

But instead I am writing in my blog. It is therapeutic. And I am making memories.. logging them for my kids to read about when they are mothers. Trying to figure out if they are normal...

So, that being said. I better write some memories down. I realized that there are a few super quirky subsets that I have never put on paper that if I do not do now, I may forget. In fact, now that I am saying this, maybe I did write these a few posts back, but I don't want to go back and check so I am going to do it again. Ha! Laziness at it's best.
Here we go...

- Addison sings the alphabet every time we open the dishwasher. No clue why, but it never fails

- Addison has a very structured bedtime routine... sometimes I wonder if she is OCD. We must get her a drink of water, let her show us how closed she wants her bedroom door, we read a book that she picks out, we say her prayers, she takes another drink, I rub her back for 5 minutes, then she takes another drink, then I do "snug as a bug" tucking her in and then she takes her blanky and ANOTHER drink. Then bed. Every night. You can set a clock by it.

- Kiki sleeps an outrageous amount of time during the day. Usually 12-14 hours at night and then 2 2-hour naps during the day. I keep thinking soon we will have to move to one nap but so far she is not budging. I'm not complaining but it does make me worry sometimes.

- Kiki clearly prefers her father right now. It sometimes hurts my feelings but considering I had her 9 months to myself and 9 months again during breastfeeding, I try not to fight it.

- Addison clearly prefers me. She is actually attached to me at the hip. I know it bothers Thomas a little but he deals. She has to sit next to me at dinner, she cries if I am not taking her to bed, she sits on my lap every time we are on the couch- heck she even follows me in the bathroom and the shower.

By the way - in the background of my living room, I am watching "She's Having a Baby" with Kevin Bacon and it's the part when she is in labor and "Woman's Work" is playing. I can feel the heartache. I'm so lucky for my family...

As always, such a random post. I wish I had more eloquent writing skills like some of my blogging buddies but at least that was a lot more fun than dusting or scrubbing a toilet. :)